I think about your statements that conjure up various negative emotions, except for two figures in your life. Those two figures are the only ones that possibly can never cause mistrust.

God and dog, funny how those words spelled backwards spell each other-- like a reflection of one another.

The god you used to believe in to the dog you love very much-- as a transcended linear path. The god you said you could tell you love can never betray that, the ultimate trust. The dog you love and get moved by can never break something in you that man has often done before.

This connection with man and yourself is certainly one that is difficult to mend, fix, remedy. Perhaps, it is after all, just the characteristics of men that is the real problem, that is, masculinity, machismo, misogyny, chauvinism-- no, but it is all men. So many men, the mistrust, the imagery, the constant reminders of the only ones who can not disappoint, for you, is god and dog.

The god that creates, breaks, and loves. The dog that eats, plays, and loves.

The only two objects considerably a man you can direct declarations of love with. But the god that is spoken about is beyond the concept of biological factors-- encompassing all and nothing at the same time. But the dog is not human, but is a male of the natural world-- one that is known as "man's companion." You've accepted them in your lives, devoid of men in this position. 

It may not be enough, but I give my utterances with great care-- encouraging, nurturing, warm, safe. I do not expect you to be grateful or accepting of my offers, but here I am, wishfully, beyond god and dog... No, just a portion equal to those two.